Delirium

'ola!

2 years ago, i went to Kinokuniya finding something that i didn't have a plan to buy.

just wanted to buy a book, any book, to read when i didn't have something to do. it's like i suddenly have this mood to do something else beside working my college stuffs. to runaway.

i went to every book shelf, fiction, romance, roman-fiction, (cause i love fiction and love stories ofcourse) i read every synopsis of it, then i looked at this book called 'Pandemonium'.
the book is small, so it really catched my eyes. i took it. but then i saw it, 'Sequel to Delirium' printed small on the cover. then i took 'Delirium' which placed next to it.
first i read the back of the book and i found it's quite interesting. more because it has sequels so i chose it.

it's been years since i last read a novel. i mean a thick one. it's been years since i lost my reading mood. i was such a dorky reader but then i got really busy at high school and i left it all.

i had no idea what it was about. like i told u, i bought it because i just wanted to read, to fill my spare time.
i read it.
but i didn't know what the story really was about at the first chapters so i didn't really put my attention on it. my works were so crazy that time and i stopped reading it. sometimes i read it, but not really got what the story about cause i was busy and unfocused.

so few months ago, i checked my college schedule is finally quite loose. so i have soo much time to do anything.
and i continued reading Delirium.
pages after pages i finally got what the story is about (+ because i have my attention on it now than the past).
pages after pages, i'm in love.
or should i say, i've been infected by Deliria. (*the readers would get it)

and i realized i've become the person i used to be again. that dorky reader. that girl who lost her mind in the story she reads. the girl who fell in love in every character she met in her books.
yes.
i'm a Delirium fan now.

when i read the second book, Pandemonium, i suddenly found out that FOX is filming Delirium.

…………. what?

this fan-art poster looks so good i cant even 

there's so much going on in my mind.

why a tv series? why not a movie?
why now?
why when i suddenly fell in love with the book i bought 2 years ago? coincidence?
why are you doing this to me?
wHY??

it's so coincidence.
right after i began to obsessed with it, i found out that news.
the tv series, the people who'll play as my imaginary characters. and in the exact same day, i saw one of the actor tweet, they're on the first day of shooting Delirium.
hella coincidence.
honestly, i was kind of disappointed because a sequel like this deserve a movie. and it's a serial tv, they'll make up the story out of the original one. i don't really like that.
but we'll see, i hope they make it really good :-)

(and again) i was a bit disappointed when i saw the guy who play as my imaginary crush character, Alex, it's Daren Kagasoff. not like the guy i expected to be. i expected someone like Robert Pattinson to play as Alex but, he's very good looking! so i like him :'>

in my head, i'm in love with Alex, the character. but after i saw the actors, damn, that guy who play as Julian is freakin hot. his name is Gregg Sulkin. ><
the main character, Lena Haloway, will be Emma Roberts. i was relieved cause she's a perrfect Lena for me. and the other main character, Hana, will be Jeanine Mason.

Daren Kagasoff

Gregg Sulkin

i told you ♡

Daren and Greg on the set of Delirium

just too much here ♡.♡

Emma Roberts and Jeanine Mason at the set of Delirium

ANYWAY
the story is about love. but it's fiction.
about what would it be when Love becomes a disease. the story is so beautiful and seems real even it's a fiction.
as long as you started reading it, i swear you'll fall for it, like i do ♡

my friend taken this candid photo of me reading Delirium at class :3

i'm reading Requiem now, the last book of the Delirium Trilogy.
never thought at the time i chose Delirium randomly, i'd become a big fan of it like this.
can't wait for the 1st episode on FOX!

by the way, i'm kinda obsessed with Justin Timberlake's new song, Mirrors, now. the first time i listened and watched the video, i burst into tears.
even now i always cry everytime i watch the video from the start.
the song is so beautiful, the lyrics are so deep and beautiful, Justin's so beautiful, the music video's beautiful as well, too much!

toodles!

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Happy New Year my blog!
it's 2013!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!
WE'RE GONNA HAVE '13' EVERYWHERE FOR 365 days now
that's exciting! ><

i had a great New Year's Eve by the way, with my bestfriend Ari, my sister Iti, and Karin my cousin at Bundaran HI Jakarta

i know it's sooooo damn late
it's gonna be a quick post anyway cause i really wanted to blog but i don't know what to write about. i've been sooooo busy specially these days. my works are so insanely much.
i was having a real tough time, i'll tell you now.

first i had a flu, it was so bad i barely couldn't breathe like all the time, then my body start acting shit like maybe i had cold but i tried so hard to act like i was 'fine'. cause the fact is, i don't have time for all these sick things looking at all my works?
second, i was homesick. LIKE REALLY BAD. at first i decided to not going home cause i only have 4 days off after exam but seeing all my friends going home and meeting each other really did kill me. i cried almost every night cause i miss home so much (which its makes my condition even worse).

so i was really sick but i acted like i was fine anyway, cause i had to do my last Photography project (which is crazy) that time. so i forced my self to work while i was seriously sick, TIL FINALLY, that day, January 13th, i fainted while i was doing my photography work. i called my mum, crying like what should i do, i can't focus i miss home, i can't be like this but i had to work, i'm feeling really bad i need you, blablabla and she was like 'slaps' me telling me to stop. shortly my aunt took me to a doctor and i'm starting feelin good. better, i decided to go home cause i can't stand my self being like 'that' til our next holiday? (even i'll be back when some of my friends will probably be back to their college then
third, i felt so…. lazy these days :| i talk about it with my friend Ara and she just feels the same way. i think all the works that r sooooo many that makes us feel 'not doing it'(?), plus the weather here in Jakarta is crazy. so i try so hard fighting my self for that :/

SO i did my photography work, it went well, i can't thank my friend, Alda, so much for helping cause it was really hard, haha. and also my uncle for the big help from making the costume til the photoshoot. i actually wanted to tell you about this, my photography project, about the making of this first ever costume i made til the photoshoot but that'd be long so i'll just show you the result

so this is it i think, my final project for Photography - COSTUME DESIGN

 

my theme for this is "Futuristic Galaxy", yeah i think i did good :/

ok, so Photography? THANK-GOD-FINALLY-done. can i get my priceless rest days now? HA HA      so funny nin. 

the point is, i really REALLY wish i could pass this days 'normally' :-) (i usually get sick or have a mental breakdown every exam weeks. well, i already did anyway :| ) and! i wish all my works can be done on time and well. thinking of home, meeting my family and friends, and eating all the heavenly food in Medan are what keep my mood up these days :-')
AAHHHHH CAN'T WAIT TO BE HOME

the beginning of 2013 seems really bad for me i think, it's ONLY been a month now but gosh
i hope the rest will be great tho
I KNOW 2013 WILL RULE!!!! YEAH!! \m/ *try to keep positive here man*

by the way, i was going thru my closet and i found this

this is the lovely knitted vest that tante Riyanti, Andri's mum, made for my 16th birthday♥ i really really do love it, seems like she knew my favorite color that time haha
look! still fit right! i wore it to college today :D

i just watched this beautiful spirit 105 year old woman talking about her life on Ellen. how she can still live like that for years, this is so precious so i think y'all should watch this and take some positive notes from her

toodles!

Ted and Robin :-')

hello! 
actually i wanted to post this yesterday but something happened.
so after my last class, me and Ara went to Central Park mall to watch Habibie & Ainun (Reza Rahardian is amazing btw), and i didn't know what was happening til we got out from the theatre. it was raining hard outside i couldn't even see the city, then i realized thing's not right here. i got out of the mall at about 8pm, still not knowing about the chaos. we were at the bridge and we saw it. the cars not moving and people walking on the streets. all i could say to Ara was "this is not right. we're stuck here." HAHA 
then i called my aunty tell her i was there and completely fine. so for the next 4 hours, all we did was telling random stories, me singing and dancing christmas songs at the Park, and prayed that someone would magically save our soul. we met Danny and Illy(whos supposed to had a flight at 9pm to Surabaya that night) too there. end of story my uncle decided to pick me up cause honestly i had no idea how to got out from there. Ara Danny and Illy decided to take a taxi and just ignored the traffic. so i have to wait for my uncle, alone. with all the people that still stucked too. about 00am finally my uncle arrived and THANK GOD U SAVED MY LIFE

so it was the first time for me, being stucked in a mall for 12 hours(i hate this city), aaand we took a video that night hahaha

so back to the topic.
few days ago i watched How I Met Your Mother ses.8 marathon. and after 3hours of crazy laughs, i cried like a hungry ass baby at the last episodes(11-12). i tell you why

T: what is wrong with me? deep down it's there's still some crazy part of me that thinks i'm gonna wind up with Robin, am i that diluted? if so, i-i need to grow up ..
Robin deserves the chance to go after Barney one last time, if that's what she wants.. i'm gonna go tell her.

M: one quick thing. .. Don't.

T: okay, why shouldn't i tell Robin?

M: because deep down, some crazy part of you still thinks that you're gonna wind up with her and i agree

T: Marshall?

M: i am sorry! but i am team tedward! always have been always will be. now listen, i want my bestfriend to be happy and if Robin could mean happiness for you then.. dear God why help her go after another man?

T: because she might still fall in love with him! to not tell her to not give her that chance, it's-it's selfish

M: so be selfish

T: i can't do that. Robin is my friend

M: she's always been more than that and you know it!
now as we speak, my wife is in a hotel room cheating on me with herself but i'm not leaving here until you promise not to say a word about this to Robin. now repeat after me,
'I, Ted mosby, promise to stop putting everyone else's interest ahead of my own and for once in my life do what's best for me'

that part literally kills me :')

then comes this one, the conversation between Ted and Robin in his car.

R: it is huge! you're the star of the party who knows maybe the future mrs.Ted Mosby's gonna be there

T: yeah, .. maybe show up

ok, i'm not gonna tell the rest. fact is i'm dying crying hard after that part, so you should probably watch the episode. and to clear up, i'm on team Ted/Robin (besides i think they're meant for eachother, maybe because some 'particular' reason that actually happened in my past life too :-') ) so that's why i get so emotional about that Ted and Robin drama haha

moving on!
few daaaays ago i watched Ed Sheeran's new video, Give Me Love, and just in few secs, i'm in love.  with the songs, and him. then i start listening to Ed sheeran songs and yeah.. i'm a fan now. what a genius ginger.

in love? hold up. check this one out first

you're welcome :-)

Christmas Holiday's coming! my sisters iti and karin is spending their holiday here so this will be fun. i think. :|

Merry Christmas everyone! have a great holiday! xx

this was taken at our last class in 2012, i took so many pictures haha gonna miss college :'

toodles!

Hustle La Vista!

hi!
it's raining hard outside while i'm writing this.
it's December 21st 2012.  the day that people said the Apocalypse day. and guess what? I SURVIVED
ok, let me say first that i don't believe in all those bullshits anyway haha
there are so many crazy rumours that i've been heard lately, some said NASA confirmed this day would be dark, daylight will be 'night', the sun will be covered by moons and blah blah blah, at first i thought, ok, that would be cool.
then i woke up this morning, 11am, with the sun brightly shine on my face and i was like, 'well, this is awkward.'
see? this December 21st 2012 thing's been so overrated.
anyway, i'm not gonna wasting this space to talk about the end of the world. i wanna talk about our successful event that happened few days ago, MAKRAB 13 DKV !

 

 

where should i start?
X9 Club Kemang, Jakarta, December 15th 2012.
that day will forever be marked as one of the best crazy night ever in my life.
so Makrab is like the yearly event in DKV where we all get to close to the freshmans and all the DKV family. the day that's full of fun. that day? IT'S CRAY
so our theme was 80s Disco. we've been so busy preparing for that day. when the day comes, with all the bad expectations and fear that this would be not as great as we wanted, everything was going fine at first. then things went perfectly out of our expectation. it was a massive success, everybody's blended in, we're all dancing like maniacs. even we're so hangover and tired after that, i just lost words explaining how great our feels were that day. it's like a big relief when it's done.not gonna say more, just let the pictures tell how great that night was

 

 explain much? :D

by the way, tomorrow's gonna be my last day of college in this year. that sounds sad. i'll admit i'm gonna miss Syahdan and all my mental friends. days without their laughs and craziness will be weird, but we'll meet again next year so that'll be cool :D

actually i'm gonna talk to you about the himym ses.8 that i just watched last night but that'll be on my next post maybe tomorrow or the next day, so like Barney says, wait for it!

toodles!