2015 was LIT

hiyyyaaaaaaa

it’s the end of the year, and i just gotta make a post basically about how great and amazing this year has been to me.

no, seriously, if you’ve been here long enough you must have known that i always made a post about how sucks the year was before, and always hoping for a better and brighter year ahead. and thank God, He answered me this year.

There were so much happened since the start of this year, but it’s not all sunny days actually. specially March 2015. The Legendary March 2015. But now i’m not gonna whine about the bad things. Even though i went thru some pretty dreadful horrible times this year, like i said, over all, this year was finally on my side.

This pretty much sums up 2015 to me. i am so grateful for all the great experience i’ve had this year, and forever i’ll cherish and remember every single things.

Oh, and there are also other things i’m grateful for this year. 

GOOD MUSIC

i’m talking Adele’s comeback with 25, Justin Bieber’s Purpose, One Direction’s Made In The A.M, Missy Elliott’s comeback, Major Lazer’s Peace Is The Mission, Rae Sremmurd’s SremmLife, Madonna’s Rebel Heart, Shawn Mendes’ Handwritten, God there are so much good music’s out this year. This is that time when you can honestly say, ‘What A Time to be Alive, Man’

There are still other things that lights up this year to me. Above all the dark times, i could still find these things to be the highlights of this year. I mean, that’s basically what you need to do if you had a bad time. Try to remember the good things, or at least try finding one. Because you can’t let the dark times win the year.

Have a wonderful New Year!

xx

toodles!

Do You Think Romance Still Exist?

Do you think romance still exist?

let’s take it back to years ago, where it took letters and knocking on doors to say hi to the one you love.
where it took hours of thinking to write down exactly what to say before you send it.
where it doesn’t take much to actually come up to someone and say hi, instead of creeping what his/her instagram or number is, and not even have the guts to say hi.

i think romance doesn’t belong to those who’s already in love, it’s the starters that count the most.
 

how you met him/her.
how you first saw him/her.
how you introduce yourself to him/her.
how you get to know him/her.
how you say hi to him/her the first time.

  

Nowadays, it seems like those things don’t matter anymore.
people now prefer stalking on social media, dating apps, and other online dating sources.
it seems like the proper ‘hi’ is no longer exist anymore.
i’m not saying i’m against all of that, it’s just, i prefer the old fashion way.

what if we could turn back time?
what if people still do all those old fashion ways?
or am just being foolish wishing it still exist?

Who I Saw So Far This Year

It's the end of August already?
So much happened this year. As i wrote to you on my previous post, i finally finished college. I am so so happy that part of my life is done, and i am finally an Art Bachelor. College was a hell of a roller coaster for me, but i’m not gonna talk about that right now.

The thing is, i am so in a happy place right now.
Last year was a mess for me, let’s just say that. but now, i’m about to graduate, i got a nice job, i got to do things i actually enjoy every day, i’m surrounded by positive people, and the most highlight of this year is i got to see some amazing people i’ve been dying to meet on their life shows. which is what i’m going to share you a little story about that right now.

okay, the first artist that i saw this year, was One Direction on their On The Road Again Tour concert.

If you're wondering, my T-shirt says, 'BABY LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME' which is my fav lyric, sung by my fav, zayn, from my fav song, Stockholm Syndrome

I saw these goobers on March 25th 2015 earlier this year, i’ve mentioned that here before. It was probably the most chaotic and twisted day of my life. you just could never guess the struggle of being a fan who wants to be as close as they can to their favs, until you become one of them. and i did. I was lining up from 11am, and not just ‘lining up’. It was raining. that means, I was lining up for 9 hours, wet. I thought to my self, okay.. it will be worth it when the boys come out soon, so i didn’t really complain or anything.

This was right when the rain just started

Look what a freaking mess we were, already inside the stadium

it was 3 hours before the show started, and the rain just won't stop pouring

But then.. The boys were finally out and that’s when it all got out of control. oh and just fyi, i was really close to the stage, like, i was here..

And i’m just gonna tell you. the crowd has no chill AT ALL. like right now if im watching some of the concert they had in other countries, i’m definitely jealous. even Harry told us to calm down and step back *because they keep pushing us forward*, it was seriously brutal. i tried to calm down and keep enjoying the show. or more like, enjoying the view i was having which was 4 beautiful human singing in front of me, and nothing else matters that time.

A video posted by nindi (@nindtq) on Jul 3, 2015 at 10:01am PDT

A video posted by nindi (@nindtq) on Apr 10, 2015 at 12:16am PDT

Over all, i had a great time during the show. i danced as hard as i could, because i was skin to skin to people around me, some girl even glanced at me because she was ‘filming’ and i was dancing and having fun. YES, WE PAY TO FILM THE CONCERT, I SEE.
aaanyway, it was an unforgettable roller coaster night for me and my girls. i still got goosies whenever i watch my video of the concert or even remember it.

Ok, moving on!
Later on May 9th 2015 i went to Katy Perry’s The Prismatic World Tour concert.
i’m not a Katycat but know all of her songs. So we’re so far from the stage, and i’m not that tall, so i can count on how many times i could see her from where i stand.

But the thing is, i was having such a great time. Actually, it was more like i had my own show back there because i can’t stop singing and dancing while my friends were just standing there watching the performance. I did warn them tho, i said, ‘don’t be surprised if you see me know all the words to her songs,’ 

Beautiful, isn't it?

It’s also kind of a redemption for me, because i couldn’t really dancing and enjoying my self at the One Direction concert before, so i was little ‘hype’ and it was really really fun. Katy’s stage performance was amazing. The lightning, the stage, she took a fan on stage, it was just a great concert.

  

Not long after, i went to Pentatonix’ On My Way Home Tour concert on June 4th 2015.
it was actually not planned at all.
so me and my friend were going to see the Broadway show, Beauty and The Beast live. But, turns out we were out of tickets, which i didn’t expect at all.
I was bumped, because it was a bad week for me and kinda need a fun night. Then i remember Pentatonix were having a concert here, so i was like, ‘hey, Pentatonix are having a second night show, do you wanna go?’ and my friend, Vina, was just like, ‘ok, sure whatever’
and so we go.

Ok here’s what makes it interested. the concert was on the same date as my Final test. So, right after i done my final, i went to the show at night, so it was CLEARLY a stress relief night for me. by the way, they were so amazing live. no music, no dancers or anything, just them and their amazing voice on stage. plus Kevin on his solo cello performance.

And finally, few days ago, on August 26th 2015 i went to Ariana Grande’s The Honeymoon Tour concert. damn she’s just slaying everytime she performs.

We were not too far from the stage, but like on Katy’s concert, i was waay to excited dancing and singing along because i know all of her songs, and my friends were totally the opposite. it was like I was with this 2 girls in front of me and 3 guys behind me that literally singing along to all the words and dancing like crazy so i don’t feel like a weirdo who’s dancing by her self. Her vocals are amazing, no doubt on that.

Well, those were the amazing people i saw so far this year. If i could go back and choose between those nights, i would choose the One Direction concert, just to stay a little far from the stage so i could dance and sing along and cry along and just having fun without any disturbance around me.

What a mess, but so so so so so happy :')

The point is, i’m so grateful i get to see all of those amazing people. I can’t wait to see more amazing live performance by people i’ve been dying to meet.

If you ever feel like your life is a mess, or you’re alone. just ask God for happiness and notice it comes to you slowly in so many ways.

toodles!

Bye Bye Wonderland

from discovering something i never thought i could

to slowly realize i was trying so hard to blend in
waking up tears every night
midnight sickness and mental breakdowns
heading to the wrong path and getting lost
deeper and deeper

being grateful above all pain
learning, keep learning
knocking doors to wonderland
but it ain’t my wonderland

4 years of being someone i’m not
4 years of pretending to be happy
4 years of achieving someone else’s dream

now i could dance free..

My Recent Obsessed

hello!

I feel like doing a recent obsessed kind of post right now, which is so random -since i’ve been getting soo busy with everything- and i swear i had this thought weeks ago but i keep postponing because of my hell crazy busy works.

Aaanywaaaayyy

So, lately i’ve been obsessed with Shawn Mendes.
*sigh*

Shawn Mendes, what could i say. so at first i was kind of like not really interesting with this kid, because i know he’s form vine, another cute good looking social media discoverie, who has nice voice, i mean, who doesn’t like that?
But one day, i was a little curious because his album went #1. So i downloaded the album.
that was the day i got the Shawn Mendes virus. There are no songs that i don’t like, or even skip. no wonder it went #1 on charts. This kid is pure talent, if you like Ed Sheeran and Canadian accent, i guarantee you’d love this boy.

I even made a cover of his big hit, Life Of The Party, fgs. i'm a total obsessed

oh and by the way, my fav fav track from the album are Crazy and Aftertaste ^^
*p.s don't blame me if you love him after listening to these :)

Next thing i probably am kind of obsessed with is the PHHHOTO app. This app is just super super cool, if you’re a tumblr slash grunge slash gif obssesed, you’ll find this app super dope and really fun :D

Taylor Swift just uploaded her epic Bad Blood music video. so yeah, i’m kind of obsessed with that too at this moment. Bad Blood is one of my fav from the album, so i was really excited when i heard it was going to be a single, plus! the Kendrick Lamar remix is dope too, it is just perfection.

Okay now i wanna have a little.. introduction? ..announcement? anyway, i have something new that i’ve been working on lately.

I used to have a vimeo account, and i used to upload my travelling video diaries there, but since vimeo was banned in my country, i got really upset and i stopped making travel videos or any video diaries since.
and few weeks ago i came up with this little idea to kind of ‘re-create’ my old channel, on Youtube, -basically so i can be productive again haha- that way i can start making video diaries again.

Soooooooo

Introducing CALI ! my new Youtube Channel!

Here’s my first video on this Channel, it’s my last short trip in Yogya few weeks ago on my pre-birthday getaway :)

soo yeah! go check it out, i may upload some of my old video diaries too, idk(?) still thinking about it.

I just saw this video, one of my fav Youtube musician, Kurt Hugo Schneider, made a mash up of one of my -Top Guilty Pleasure- favorite bollywood song, Chaiyya Chaiyya with Michael Jackson’s Don’t Stop 'Till You Get Enough. And it is… A-MAZING. y'all should check this one out

Yep, i think that's all my recent obsessed at the moment, or at least the ones i could i remember right now. I’m going to see Pentatonix on their On My Way Home Tour this early June. can’t waitt!!!!!

toodles!

The Ups and Downs This Early 2015

4 months, and i feel like it’s been a year.

You know when you’ve been in a worst situation, where everything feels wrong and you feel like you can’t get out. But then you get out, and try so so so hard to move on and forget?

That’s me these past 4 months. Well, last month, exactly.

I’ve been through a lot since new year, some Ups and Downs. And i hate to remember the worst things that happened cause it still hurts to be honest, so i’m just gonna be all positive now and share some 'Ups' that i had ^^

2015 so far has been quite interesting.

i finally saw Harry, Liam, Niall and Louis with my own eyes, not thru a screen, alive, just few feets away from me on their On The Road Again Tour at GBK Jakarta. I never realized how ridiculously good looking Louis Tomlinson is until that moment when he stood on stage so close to me and i took a moment just sinked it all in and said, .. well i didn’t say a thing i was stoned.

I mean, i have a lot of HQ pictures of him, i know how hot he is but THAT moment, it’s like.. i don't even know what it’s like, Louis Tomlinson is not human, just to clarify.

we were 100% on point before the rain started

rain started, but selfie first

inside the stadium, looked mess already 4 hours before the show even started

wet wet wet

i was this close to an angel

what r u doing payno

my niam feels

'sup Harry

The Squad

Even though the concert was such a mess, the fact that Louis was real and was there, clear up every mess that happened that day.

oh! and i started working out early this year. i used to hate working out, well i never did, because i never could. so surprisingly i did good and could maintain my gym routine as much as i could during my daily activities. And i kinda like it, going to the gym. hell yeah gym! ha

and another ‘Ups’ i had probably my work. so now i’m working at a radio station, as a Graphic Designer and Videographer. to be honest i never thought that i’d work at a radio station and i had no idea what’s coming or what to expect. But so far i’m enjoying every bit of time that i’m spending there. i got to work many great people there. and i’m feeling so grateful for it.

it is important to think about things that makes you feel grateful when you’re feeling down, cause if you don’t, you’ll press the quit button right away and trust me, i was close to that button, many times. But then i wake up and keep reminding my self, i’m almost there.

oh by the way, I MET LOU TEASDALE! this has been on my list to get a selfie with her since i knew her. so let me tell you a little story about this one.

The One Direction lads and crews arrived at Jakarta since Monday, the concert was on Wednesday. I was freaking out. Seriously. Like.. how could i spend the days with the fact that they could be anywhere in my freaking city and i’m at work acting like it’s a normal day? and the thoughts of possibility that some fans could meet them anytime while i’m in my room or at my office, or while im sleeping??? trust me, i was like a ghost coming to work because my body was there, but my mind was idk where the hell it was.

BUT SURPRISINGLY, there’re none of pictures of them spotted with a fan til tuesday, which is weird????

It’s like they’re hiding, and they were. They stayed at the hotel the whole time, and next i found out that security here was crazy strict, unlike other countries they visited before.

And honestly, my goal was to meet Josh (The Drummer), Lou Teasdale (The Stylist - and the hottest coolest mom ever - Harry’s best friend - and happen to be the twin of Sam Teasdale, who’s the owner of Bleach London), and Gemma (Harry’s sister), but Gemma didn’t come so it came down to Josh and Lou. It’s not like i didn’t want to meet the lads, but it was nearly impossible knowing how strict the security rules here.

I was pissed at my self like why am i sitting in my office and not do a single thing to find them?

So me and my friends decided to stalk them on tuesday evening. We met at Plaza Indonesia, my friends were already there, it’s the 3 of them (ka Okky, Ara, and ka Festy).

While i was still on the way, they texted me that Josh was spotted at Grand Indonesia. I was freaking out in my taxi. Like holy shit. There’s a chance. We actually made plans, the 4 of us. We dressed up well, and the plan was 'to look less like ‘fans’ ', because face it. There were no pics of them with a fan because the security won’t allow fans got a picture with any of them, and we kinda act like not a fan. See what we did there?

So i got there, met my friends, and they said, ‘we just met Lou! LOU’S HERE!’ …

I was more freaking out. They said hi to her but the security stopped them. Then i said, i want to see her, i need to see her. Then some of them left so it’s just me, ka Okky, and Ara. I told them i really wanted to get a pic or at least say hi to her. so we wait.

We waited at Starbucks and few moments after… there she was, with her friend. Coming out of the mall and sit and waited for their ride. And it was just her and her friend, NO SECURITY. The lobby was empty, it was a perfect moment. We were freaking out. ka Okky told me, well, she URGED me, to go said hi. Just me. Because i was the only one who really wanted to get a pic and said hi to her. AND SO I WALKED OUT OF STARBUCKS, tried so hard to calm my self and act normal on my heels, then,

‘hi Lou!’ 

Then they both looked at me and she smiled, and i was going to chit chat a bit but they were in the middle of conversation so i was afraid he (the friend) might told me to leave, so i just straight to asked her for a picture, and she said ‘sure!’ and got up from her seat.

that's me when i came to Lou, and here's a pic from Ara who creeping us

♡♡♡

After that, i was going to talk to her but the guy friend said, ‘no more please’, which i understand, then i said thanks to her and i went back to Starbucks. I kept saying ‘holy shit, holy shit, holy shit’ i could see ka Okky and Ara were freaking out as i walked in but i was shaking so hard. I was literally shaking for about an hour i guess. I couldn’t believe that just happened. I knew they couldn’t interact so much to fans here because of the rules that the promoter made here, that is why i was so lucky that happened. Just few moments after their car arrived, there were some fans coming to the lobby. I-was-so-lucky :’D

THAT was definitely my best ‘Ups’. I hope there’ll be more Ups moments for the rest of this year.

Toodles!