The Ups and Downs This Early 2015

4 months, and i feel like it’s been a year.

You know when you’ve been in a worst situation, where everything feels wrong and you feel like you can’t get out. But then you get out, and try so so so hard to move on and forget?

That’s me these past 4 months. Well, last month, exactly.

I’ve been through a lot since new year, some Ups and Downs. And i hate to remember the worst things that happened cause it still hurts to be honest, so i’m just gonna be all positive now and share some 'Ups' that i had ^^

2015 so far has been quite interesting.

i finally saw Harry, Liam, Niall and Louis with my own eyes, not thru a screen, alive, just few feets away from me on their On The Road Again Tour at GBK Jakarta. I never realized how ridiculously good looking Louis Tomlinson is until that moment when he stood on stage so close to me and i took a moment just sinked it all in and said, .. well i didn’t say a thing i was stoned.

I mean, i have a lot of HQ pictures of him, i know how hot he is but THAT moment, it’s like.. i don't even know what it’s like, Louis Tomlinson is not human, just to clarify.

we were 100% on point before the rain started

rain started, but selfie first

inside the stadium, looked mess already 4 hours before the show even started

wet wet wet

i was this close to an angel

what r u doing payno

my niam feels

'sup Harry

The Squad

Even though the concert was such a mess, the fact that Louis was real and was there, clear up every mess that happened that day.

oh! and i started working out early this year. i used to hate working out, well i never did, because i never could. so surprisingly i did good and could maintain my gym routine as much as i could during my daily activities. And i kinda like it, going to the gym. hell yeah gym! ha

and another ‘Ups’ i had probably my work. so now i’m working at a radio station, as a Graphic Designer and Videographer. to be honest i never thought that i’d work at a radio station and i had no idea what’s coming or what to expect. But so far i’m enjoying every bit of time that i’m spending there. i got to work many great people there. and i’m feeling so grateful for it.

it is important to think about things that makes you feel grateful when you’re feeling down, cause if you don’t, you’ll press the quit button right away and trust me, i was close to that button, many times. But then i wake up and keep reminding my self, i’m almost there.

oh by the way, I MET LOU TEASDALE! this has been on my list to get a selfie with her since i knew her. so let me tell you a little story about this one.

The One Direction lads and crews arrived at Jakarta since Monday, the concert was on Wednesday. I was freaking out. Seriously. Like.. how could i spend the days with the fact that they could be anywhere in my freaking city and i’m at work acting like it’s a normal day? and the thoughts of possibility that some fans could meet them anytime while i’m in my room or at my office, or while im sleeping??? trust me, i was like a ghost coming to work because my body was there, but my mind was idk where the hell it was.

BUT SURPRISINGLY, there’re none of pictures of them spotted with a fan til tuesday, which is weird????

It’s like they’re hiding, and they were. They stayed at the hotel the whole time, and next i found out that security here was crazy strict, unlike other countries they visited before.

And honestly, my goal was to meet Josh (The Drummer), Lou Teasdale (The Stylist - and the hottest coolest mom ever - Harry’s best friend - and happen to be the twin of Sam Teasdale, who’s the owner of Bleach London), and Gemma (Harry’s sister), but Gemma didn’t come so it came down to Josh and Lou. It’s not like i didn’t want to meet the lads, but it was nearly impossible knowing how strict the security rules here.

I was pissed at my self like why am i sitting in my office and not do a single thing to find them?

So me and my friends decided to stalk them on tuesday evening. We met at Plaza Indonesia, my friends were already there, it’s the 3 of them (ka Okky, Ara, and ka Festy).

While i was still on the way, they texted me that Josh was spotted at Grand Indonesia. I was freaking out in my taxi. Like holy shit. There’s a chance. We actually made plans, the 4 of us. We dressed up well, and the plan was 'to look less like ‘fans’ ', because face it. There were no pics of them with a fan because the security won’t allow fans got a picture with any of them, and we kinda act like not a fan. See what we did there?

So i got there, met my friends, and they said, ‘we just met Lou! LOU’S HERE!’ …

I was more freaking out. They said hi to her but the security stopped them. Then i said, i want to see her, i need to see her. Then some of them left so it’s just me, ka Okky, and Ara. I told them i really wanted to get a pic or at least say hi to her. so we wait.

We waited at Starbucks and few moments after… there she was, with her friend. Coming out of the mall and sit and waited for their ride. And it was just her and her friend, NO SECURITY. The lobby was empty, it was a perfect moment. We were freaking out. ka Okky told me, well, she URGED me, to go said hi. Just me. Because i was the only one who really wanted to get a pic and said hi to her. AND SO I WALKED OUT OF STARBUCKS, tried so hard to calm my self and act normal on my heels, then,

‘hi Lou!’ 

Then they both looked at me and she smiled, and i was going to chit chat a bit but they were in the middle of conversation so i was afraid he (the friend) might told me to leave, so i just straight to asked her for a picture, and she said ‘sure!’ and got up from her seat.

that's me when i came to Lou, and here's a pic from Ara who creeping us

♡♡♡

After that, i was going to talk to her but the guy friend said, ‘no more please’, which i understand, then i said thanks to her and i went back to Starbucks. I kept saying ‘holy shit, holy shit, holy shit’ i could see ka Okky and Ara were freaking out as i walked in but i was shaking so hard. I was literally shaking for about an hour i guess. I couldn’t believe that just happened. I knew they couldn’t interact so much to fans here because of the rules that the promoter made here, that is why i was so lucky that happened. Just few moments after their car arrived, there were some fans coming to the lobby. I-was-so-lucky :’D

THAT was definitely my best ‘Ups’. I hope there’ll be more Ups moments for the rest of this year.

Toodles!