Bye Bye Wonderland

from discovering something i never thought i could

to slowly realize i was trying so hard to blend in
waking up tears every night
midnight sickness and mental breakdowns
heading to the wrong path and getting lost
deeper and deeper

being grateful above all pain
learning, keep learning
knocking doors to wonderland
but it ain’t my wonderland

4 years of being someone i’m not
4 years of pretending to be happy
4 years of achieving someone else’s dream

now i could dance free..