Friday, February 14, 2014

Black and White Silence



look around
can you feel that?
the awkward move
the undiscovered tears
the fearful thoughts
the broken smile
the forcing laugh
the screaming pain
the hidden lies
everything is in Black and White Silence
i've dreamt of a world full of people with no broken wings
i did
but yet it's only a dream
im in silence
going to school
finished school
going to college your parents told you to
depressed
then they blame us and society
i'm in silence
i wonder when
when will time finally slap me out of this black and white silence
maybe with a word,
'you are not your parent's machine, wake the fuck up'
i'm in silence
my wings still survive
but you can barely see its pain
there will be time
when they see us as rebels
when the truth
we're flying our own wings
and realized
these wings are not a machine
it grows in our body
We control it
not you, not you, not you
i'm in silence
there will be time
when these wings finally works beautifully
no pain
no blood
and the world will finally realize
how sad the world this young blood's been living
and im still in silence


Happy Valentine's Day


so who's watching American Idol season 13?
i can say that i finally have that feel i had when i watched David's season.
this season is different. the panel has a new freaking hot smart af judge that really stepped up the last flopped panel, mr Harry Connick Jr. haha i love him so much
anyway, ive got my back on one of the guys already.
his name is Alex Preston, he's had my heart from the first audition. he's like the American version of Ed Sheeran, aaah! i love him!


toodles!

Friday, January 17, 2014

2013 Highlights

Happy New Year!

how's the end of 2013 went for you?
mine sucks. just as sucks as the whole damn year, so never mind.
if i could, and technically i could (cause it's my blog), i' wanna tell you something a little personal now.
tbh, this feels like i reach that saturation point where there's nothing in my lecture that excites me anymore. this is always something ive been scared of. or, i don't know, maybe this isn't, because i still have a year ahead, but, you know, if you're in my situation or had been in situation like this, specially those who took art depart like me, you'll get what i mean.

so moving on!
i think it's time to look back at 2013 and see again what's the highlights, from my personal life and the pop culture, that has happened each every months.
idk why i think this is gonna be fun so let's do this :D

January 2013

this month was all about my photography project, first time i collapse because i was forcing my self working, EVER.

kinda miss that hair naww


and ofcourse, my baby Anton, Zedd, drops the Clarity video which is a bomb thru his career after since


February 2013

i went home + met my highschool bffs which is super fun

Beyoncé's superbowl halftime show


Demi Lovato released her first single from the new album, Heart Attack, which was like some kind of drugs just booze me til now, i was  sooo in love with the song at that time, and still now.

March 2013

i think this month was about my obsession over Delirium Trilogy. im still pissed cause it looks like they didn't approve the tv series production to air.

Justin Timberlake released Mirror music video and it was magical.

reunited with almost the whole group :)



April 2013

this is a full India month.
1st, Selena Gomez released her 1st single from Stars Dance, Come & Get It (which was such a big big hit thru the year) that has Bollywood sense in it, then we were doing our AV project , making a video about Hindus in Jakarta and even it was really stressful, it was one of the most amazing project ive done in my college life.

see those two indian guys? not long after this photo was taken, they were taking pictures while i'm filming, and suddenly they asked me any Christy for a picture. Haha it was weird cause their English was kinda terrible and we didn't expect that at all


May 2013

VESAK!
being so dramatically at Borobudur celebrating vesak with my college friends, and my bestfriends, Andri and Petrio, will forever be the moment i'll never forget.



Demi Lovato released her latest album, Demi, which is one of my fav album ever.


June 2013

Neil Patrick Harris killed his performance at Tony Awards. one of my fav opening show ever.
 

Miley drops the bomb with her 1st single + phenomenal music video, We Can't Stop.


Lorde released the US version of her sick tune, song of the year, Royals. it was slowly booming like everywhere you go, they play it.

July 2013


Cory Monteith
1982 - 2013
:')

 
Talia Joy
1999 - 2013

One Direction drops the Best Song Ever video. that one time when Zayn transformed into a lady and he's still hotter than any hot girls ever.

yep, this is Not a Vogue cover model, this is Zayn Jawaad Malik
August 2013

Katy Perry released her 1st hit single Roar, then followed by Gaga with a surprise released of Applause.

Zayn and Perrie's engagement.

VMA.
ok VMA has a lot to discuss.
1. Miley. she brought up the whole twerking thing to her disgusting (*im sorry) VMA performance with Robin Thicke, which was basically THE topic people never get tired of since


2. Gaga's comeback performance


3. Gaga left the room + meeting One Direction backstage right after they get boo'd for accepting the award. it was truly, 'THE' moment of the year for me watching my Gods + Goddess sharing loves :')


September 2013

Zedd released his new hit single featuring Hayley Williams, Stay The Night. and i loooove the music video cause the director was very creative he used basic material to create the magic in the video which i didnt expect at all.


Ylvis didn't know What Does The Fox Says so instead they made a video that blew up the internet.

Miley, again, drops the controversy Wrecking Ball video. well, it's not too 'controversy', but that's what the media would want it to be anyway, so.


October 2013

Glee airs the Cory's tribute, Finn's Farewell episode.

 
Gaga released Do What U Want featuring R. Kelly

One Direction released their second hit single from the new album, Story Of My Life


November 2013

going on a quick trip to Magelang for my project and spent such a bless final days in Magelang and Yogya.


Lady Gaga released her latest #1 album, ARTPOP.

Disney posted the Maleficent first trailer. the upcoming classic disney princess Aurora tale movie, star Angelina Jolie as Maleficent and Elle Fanning as Aurora. the trailer was breath-taking. When i heard Angelina was playing Maleficent i was too excited, definitely a must-watch movie, hope the movie won't disappoint the excitement.

 

Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2013!


The 41st American Music Awards. a lot happened on that show, but surely, most importantly, THESE happened.



December 2013

Tom Daley's 'come out' video. i really like how he said,  

"in an ideal world, i wouldn't be doing this." 

surely if you really think about that, that has a really strong meaning like why should people just love whoever they love without having this thoughts or fear about what other people might say about them? that's the ironic in this un-ideal world we're living. and not just about that, everything.


Djakarta Warehouse Project. yes, i went to that biggest rave party of the year last year. got to see my loves Madeon and of course Zedd, also Alesso and David Guetta. sick night.




lol spot me :P
 
Madeon :3

The best set goes for Zedd, as usual








2013 was clearly a flop.
ok, favorite thing about 2013.. i think Gaga's comeback and from my personal, my Yogya trip.
but still, the whole year sucks.

moving on,  2014 started with rain season here in Jakarta, like usual. i have flu, as usual.
so far 2014 is boring, which why im pretty excited for    *drum rolls*     coming home next week! haha i shouldn't be going home that early before final exam, but missing home sucks, and yes clearly i need to bring my mood back (specially for finals) cause lately i feel like a zombie at campus, no spirit at all.
PLUS! The 56th Annual Grammy Award is coming this January 27th, and i can't freaking wait to see who's gonna take the crown of the night :D
i had sort of nothing to do the other day and decided to take a quick shot inspired by the currently weather here





i'll leave you with my favorite quote from this book that i just finished reading, that i think you should really have a thought about it :-)

'You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present."

- John Green , Looking For Alaska.



toodles!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Gloomy Gloomy Season, Here I Come



have you ever feel like you're in a movie?
don't say no. i know you do.
you're walking, making a monologue inside your head, picturing the moment as it's a slow motion scene.
or if you love drama you'll picture someone will suddenly show up in a coffee shop where you're having your me time and then he asks what book you're reading and ended up asking your name, or someone will accidentally run past you in a bookstore and when he looks up turns out he's cute then he said sorry, or if you love horror movies you're picturing someone is watching you as you walking in a grocery store picking up things, or worse, you're picturing someone is suddenly knocking at your door and say, "you're a wizard (y/n)!"

ok that's it.
don't say you never make your own version of that?! if you do, you're a big ass liar.
to be honest, i love doing those picturing things. maybe because i really love writing. i love making scenes, and somehow when i see things, there's always these crazy ideas that pops up in my head and starts making it's own version of what's happening in front of me, and it's getting my version of reality.

would it be nice if we can actually make our life exactly like in a movie? how we wanted it to be, well, but sadly no. like Katy Perry says in one of her songs, it's Not Like The Movies. So suck it up, make your life a lot less living hell, so at least, your 'movie' can still roll on.

so hi!


as you can see, i have a new look :-) i mean this blog :-)
actually i am now preparing for a big change, i'm still figuring out what to do, so it's kinda like 'a little step' in to it, cause it's been 5 years i have this blog. 5 years is a long time, isn't it?
Writing stuff that seriously who on earth would read anyway? i just love writing, it gives me spaces. well if you stick around since then, thanks, i give you virtual hugs now, xoxxo, i luuuuv hugging :"3

anyway

Welcome Gloomy Season!




just because i said that, doesn't mean that i love this month. no. just the weather and Christmas.
can u all just believe that it's December already? i can still remember really well about my NYE last year it feels like it happened 2 months ago, and it's just weeks away to another NYE?
seriously, Haylor's dating was ALREADY a year ago?? u know, the freaking NYE's kiss at Times Sq that really blows the media for ever since? yep, that was exactly a year ago :)

 
i think we can all agree that 2013 is really speeding up. i don't know what's going on with the world, i don't know what the hell happened with this year, but it seems like time's gone really fast for this year. i mean there are so much great and bad things happened, yet it all just happened like a flash.
i can't even begin to think about the great things happened this year. it all seems blurry after Cory's death. now all i can remember about 2013 is Cory and it's just really sad.
ok, i think i remember something 'memorable' this year. hmmm
VESAK!


haha yes! how could i forget that?! GOSH it happened THIS year? i thought it's 2012 :| omg my mind really fucks up about this year :s well i better stop digging now :/

are you one of those people who make the new year's resolutions stuff?
well i think that's bullshit.
actually i made the list, and it seems like time flies really fast and i feel like i didn't have time to accomplish those? well.. i did checked some, but the rest are just not for this year, i think..? eeerrh.. i don't know, maybe it's just me :/
like do you really work on your NY's resolutions everyday in a year? well i happened to be really busy so ;D

for a proper close, here i give you a video from my favorite mash up djs, Dj Earworm and Daniel Kim (Pop Danthology), they just done another mash ups for this year and it's freaking amazing,
i can't even choose which one's my favorite cause personally earworm's my favorite cause not only he mash up the music, but also he does something that no other mash up-ers do, the LYRICS. he also combine the lyrics becoming like a new song, and i think that's seriously brilliant. and on the other side, Daniel Kim is just so flawlessly combine that many songs without any flaw like it's so beautiful, idk what to say
go check 'em out!


Pop Danthology 2013 - Daniel Kim




United State of Pop 2013 (Living the Fantasy) - Dj Earworm   

even tho this year feels like a flash, there are still so many great things happened during 2013, and im so grateful of those. including this gif of harry koala-ing over liam at a concert :-)

doesn't it just make your life so much brighter? :')
well, i do!


haha see you next year losers! xoxoxoxox


toodles!