Hustle La Vista!

hi!
it's raining hard outside while i'm writing this.
it's December 21st 2012.  the day that people said the Apocalypse day. and guess what? I SURVIVED
ok, let me say first that i don't believe in all those bullshits anyway haha
there are so many crazy rumours that i've been heard lately, some said NASA confirmed this day would be dark, daylight will be 'night', the sun will be covered by moons and blah blah blah, at first i thought, ok, that would be cool.
then i woke up this morning, 11am, with the sun brightly shine on my face and i was like, 'well, this is awkward.'
see? this December 21st 2012 thing's been so overrated.
anyway, i'm not gonna wasting this space to talk about the end of the world. i wanna talk about our successful event that happened few days ago, MAKRAB 13 DKV !

 

 

where should i start?
X9 Club Kemang, Jakarta, December 15th 2012.
that day will forever be marked as one of the best crazy night ever in my life.
so Makrab is like the yearly event in DKV where we all get to close to the freshmans and all the DKV family. the day that's full of fun. that day? IT'S CRAY
so our theme was 80s Disco. we've been so busy preparing for that day. when the day comes, with all the bad expectations and fear that this would be not as great as we wanted, everything was going fine at first. then things went perfectly out of our expectation. it was a massive success, everybody's blended in, we're all dancing like maniacs. even we're so hangover and tired after that, i just lost words explaining how great our feels were that day. it's like a big relief when it's done.not gonna say more, just let the pictures tell how great that night was

 

 explain much? :D

by the way, tomorrow's gonna be my last day of college in this year. that sounds sad. i'll admit i'm gonna miss Syahdan and all my mental friends. days without their laughs and craziness will be weird, but we'll meet again next year so that'll be cool :D

actually i'm gonna talk to you about the himym ses.8 that i just watched last night but that'll be on my next post maybe tomorrow or the next day, so like Barney says, wait for it!

toodles!

new look

hi!
it's 1.40 am now, don't know what to do, lately i was so busy at time like this but now the mid-test is (FINALLY) over so i guess i'm just gonna blog something.
and YES i have something to tell, and it's.. ta-daaAAAAAAAA~~~

yes bitches, i cut my hair short

i tried to not over think when i decided to do and just went for it so i DID

for the first fucking time ever in my life, this is the shortest one i've EVER had

haha sorry for the words, it's just been really weird days without 'something' on my back to play with, i've tried to do some different styles with this look but i still can't ;_; (help me)

some of my friends says they like it, i look more 'fresh', younger, whatever
but i kinda like it actually, it's like being a new me (even people would expect me to be more 'act like your look' but i definitely don't HAHA) at some point :">

so yeah, that's it. i have a new look, things have been quite good, we have a big schedule this next two weeks, i hope everything goes well, holiday's on the way, Christmas's coming and i'm so excited! BIG SALE! YEAH! …

few days ago my friend Hafizh uploaded this video on Youtube and.. yeah.. just watch :')

  

those are all my friends. i gotta say that's our daily life at college everyday :') BUT i still don't know what's his intention for uploading that i mean we all look like bunch of idiots there, well.. we all are :/

 toodles!

Jakarta Masih Punya Hutan

hai!
kali ini bakal nulis pakai bahasa, kapan ya terakhir kali nulis pake bahasa Indonesia? hehe
jadi hari ini tuh Idul Adha, siang siang diajak om survei tempat buat photoshoot pra-wedding yang bakal dipakai client-nya. dan ternyata tempatnya itu Hutan Bakau Suaka Marga Satwa Muara Angke. dan ini pertama kalinya saya kesana.
ketika sampai, ternyata kita kurang beruntung, tempatnya ditutup karena hari libur (Ied Adha), tapi kita dibolehin masuk hanya sampai depan pagar masuk.

jujur seneng sih diajakin ke tempat yang semuanya hijau.
dalam hati bersyukur di kota yang super crowded dimana setiap hari menghirup polusi ini masih ada hutan kecil yang masih dilindungi.
walaupun sedikit sedih ngeliat Muara yang dipenuhi sampah dari sungai sungai yang melewati Muara, setidaknya Jakarta Masih Punya Hutan ☺

Kapan ya Jakarta bisa hijau?

Toodles!

"The Break Ups"

hey. i just watched Glee "The Break Up"

yeah you know what i'm gonna talk about. i just suddenly have a mental breakdown because of it and i can't talk about it anywhere but here cause this is so personal and my blog is so personal for me, unlike twitter. not that twitter's not personal but this is more.

the episode is all about the break up. i knew it was gonna happen soon, just like what i have experienced. but after all tears i've wasted through watching this, i feel like i should put up some of the lines that REALLY related to me, my past, and my life.

S: "and i don't wanna be like all of those other long distance relationships that you hang in there for a few months and then break up when someone eventually cheats or things get weird"

B: "i never cheat on you"

S:  "i know. and i would never cheat on you either. let's just do the mature thing here okay? this is not an offical break up. let's just be honest that Long Distance Relationship are almost impossible to maintain because both people are really getting what they need. especially at our age"

B: "this sounds all like a break up to me."

S: "you know this is no working. you know i will always love you the most"

B: "i love you too."

 

   

  

F: "i'm trying to give you your freedom!"

R: "i don't need you to give me my freedom! i am a grown women, i don't need you to hide from me to keep me from doing what is right for me"

F: "oh like that brody guy?"

R: "i didn't do Brody. okay? and don't you think that i would've rather have been with you."

R: "don't you get it? no matter how rich or famous or successful i become, when it comes to you i'm always gonna be that moon eye girl who freaked you out at the first glee rehearsal. you were the first boy who made me feel loved, and sexy, and visible, you are my first love, and i want more than anything for you to be my last. But i can't do this anymore. at least not now. we're done." 

get it? it's just some of the lines that shot me. the songs? just as killing as those did.

but, just over it. 

i'm actually having a really good time in college lately. i gain so much friends and they're really really crazy, and did i mention it? i'm having a crush on someone :-) he's really good like.. in everything. he's so nice to me, haha not that i'm hoping for the next level tho, it's just i'm so enjoying this time i have with my new friends, maybe that's just one of those many things that makes me so happy right now :) 

 Toodles!

Promise and Others

helloo!!
i'm back in Jakarta now, facing this real life again :')

few days ago, i went to Bogor with my friends, bringing all the DKV freshmans for 3 days.
i gotta say, it was so so much fun for us :-D

 

 

actually i made this post to done my promise on my previous' post, i said i'd post my vacation video, right? haha i had my time so i uploaded it, here it is:

see? i had so much fun with my family, such a good time :-)

just few minutes ago(while i'm doing this post), i got my package from Coppelia Shop, and i love love it!

and by the way, One Direction released their newest video, Live While We're Young few hours ago, and.. I'M IN LOVE WITH THE VIDEO! like.. sjkdhjksglfliaskgfajigfiwuef i was fangirling over limits watching it! so i guess y'all should watch it too

Toodles!

feelings

hi!
i'm in Medan now, day 20 of Ramadhan. i went on Vacation before i got here, i went to Lombok, Bali, Bromo(Malang), Yogyakarta, Semarang, back to Jakarta and now here i am :)
but now i'm not gonna talk about it, actually i wanted to show you our vacation video instead of writing about it, which is more fun, but i don't know what's wrong with this internet connection here, i've been trying to upload it since maybe a week ago but always failed, yeah i'm too depressing about it but still trying :')

so now i'm gonna talk about stuff that i've refused to talk about here, stuff about 'feelings'.
so if you feel like it's just a waste of time reading this unimportant-thing-to-read, i'm telling you, you don't have to :)

you know i stopped talking about my personal life here since i'm not with somebody anymore.
it's like taking thousand healing pills and medications from my mental breakdown about 8 months ago. that's why i never talked about it again, i've been building something that had gone inside of me, haha sounds so stupid but i felt like i walked, talked, laughed, doing things without any feelings cause it crushed.

people say "The First One Is The Hardest". i get that.
i felt like a crazy lunatic. i cried everynight, i cut my hand so many times, well i think i shouldn't tell the details more hehe
i tried to find new things that i can do to keep my mind busy with positive things, i made a YouTube account, yaay! haha i wrote so many songs about him, cause i don't know how to spill out my feelings without causing blood or any bad things :/
the point is, i've tried so hard to get to this part, and it's not easy.

The problem is now, i'm here, in Medan, my house, and it's like every second is a rewind.
few days ago i met him for the first time since he left 11 months ago, kinda sad, isn't it?
and i've struggled with this feeling again and i can't help it.

it's not that i haven't moved on with my life, it's just i miss him. and the fact that every step i make here brings up the past memory, it's hard not to admit it.

mom once said to me:

"if you're meant to be together, you'll be together, no matter wherever you are"

i'm glad tho we're friends now :)

cheers!

here pics of me on my Summer Vacation at Gili Lombok <3>

 

 

anyway, i just made my instagram acc :|
so you can check.. if.. you're.. insterested. :|
 

click on the image

 Toodles!